I would advise you to remember that part of the fright and stickiness of these thoughts is biological. I got a trigger back a few months ago I was wondering why Jews today dont believe in Christ as Messiah, then I started to question Christ myself. I know that I dont believe or mean the thoughts. A healthy ability to distinguish between His role as king and our role as subjects will protect us from blasphemy. Some will be drawn to Christ through the kind compassion of a true Christian, while others will be drawn to Christ by somber thoughts of what may be coming in the future. We arent saying that Chemosh isnt real. They feel bad about it. But again, remember that we are speaking of purposeful and willful blasphemy. 12:10 Blasphemy Against the Holy Spirit - Geoff Thomas Sermon Archive I felt like I willfully did this so I got so depressed that I kept having bad thoughts against the Holy Spirit that one carried no feelings of anxiety with it until the thought had ended and then I kept having them and it felt like I truly WILLFULLY chose them but then again I look back and I see that I was breathing heavily, was over analyzing everything, had a resistance to the thought and did not agree and to this day Im still ruminating over whether I truly said a blasphemy or not. I feel like God is with me in this situation but I still fell helpless and confused most times. I'm going to swim in this new found insight and see how things go.. And I might try the exposure therapy.. Having negative or blasphemous thoughts against God does not always mean there is something wrong with you. I dont mean it st all. How it can about: recently I was speaking with a brother in Christ about the meaning of blaspheming the Holy Spirit as written in Matthew. Jesus loves you and He wants a relationship with you! But as long as you move on and treat the thoughts with indifference, everything will be ok.. God will continue to work on your behalf! I would recommend instead that you read Dr. Ian Osbornes book Can Christianity Cure Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder? He is a Christian mental health professional who went through some severe scruples and doubt himself, and developed a unique response called Trust Therapy based on several Christian theologians from the past who seemed to have religious OCD.
